Come to think about it, my hair has grown! Shagged face.

Worked at Brazilian Ji-Jitsu from 10 plus to 6 today.

See all kinds of people fought(sizes, height : fat, small size, tall short, chinese, malay, mix, ang mo.)How i wish there was a girl category. sian...

lOL!!!...

then i can join to vent anger on it too..

Its BRAZILIAN JI-JITSU is something like wrestling but no kicking.

How to win?

You have to choke the person till cannot move. Being it with hands or legs.

Diff pose has diff points.

INTERESTING.

Next event, MUAY THAI!

i miss you .

i love you.

( Singing & Grease matey ) Kassim and i.

Had rehersals...
out the whole night...
Came for rehersals the next day.



I missed.
I cared.
I loved.
I lost.
I'm lost.









i miss you .

i love you.

Exams are coming.
In 1 half week more...
Down with Fever de day before and a bad flu.
Is as bad as dying.
Having rehersal yesterday evening while sick.
Feeelings sucked....
While singing the last song.
I just teared, though its not very touchy but dunno why...
Hearts and mind feeling so empty like an empty coconut.
Rehersals and rehersals today and tml.....
Geee......break can break.
Sigh....




i miss you
i love you.

Life hasn't been NO better.
Hectic ....
Rehersals today...
Dance and sing
Sing and danced till ankle hurts...
Down with Fever and Bad flu....
will recoveR.
Just a matter of time.
Exams are coming too...
Shut me up please.
Squeeze my tears dry ....


i miss you
i love you.

I teared for someone whom i loved last night.
I teared for someone or the things i treasured
I teared for someone who don't appreciate what i've done.
I teared for someone i trusted.
I just teared and teared because i'm just lost of words as my heart hurts alot...
It hurts more than what i experienced before.
It hurts more than how much i had done before....
Its just undescribable and so silent...
If only time could turn back.
I am willing to start again and get this chance....
Are you willing to?
I just wish you could talk to me.

Thanks Eddie, Shane, Adeline and Joanne for a lending ear.
Shut me up...
Kill me if you think i ought to be cuz i'm just being dumb and stubborn.



I'll miss you like i missed you
I'll love you like i loved you before.

Are all guys the same....?
one moment they say one thing.
And the next you'll know they did another thing.
Is it so hard one you really love???
Is tht so hard?
Does doing things for the person i loved not worth to be loved?
One time you and him were so close....
next moment you know his another person like a hi bye friend...
the way how things spoke were so different.
Is it such a worth to let go memories we had like tht?

I had a hard time all this while... recently especially...
being it at home...
being it in school...
being it in sports...
being it in friends...
and here comes love life...

people thinks i had all...
but who the hell knows i don't.
All i want is being loved thats all...
All i want is someone who holds me tight and never let me go.
All i want is a listening ear , a shoulder to cry onto forever.

Joanne came speaking up to me in msn...
as i told her about my stuff...
tears came rolling down my cheeks non non - stop...
I knows whats up in my mind.

But alot of things had happened .
I dunno where to start from and where to end...
I just need a peace of mind.
How i wish i was a nobody where no one sees me and has expectations of me.
How i wish i would be the kind of girl tht hid my face.
So afraid to tell the world what i've got to say
But i have this dream
right inside of me
I'm not gonna let it show
cuz its not time
I can't let you know.


I'm missing you...
I'm loving you...=))

Fridays are hard on me now a days...
Have vocals from 4 to 6 then musical dance from 6 to 8.
phew...
first lesson of musical dance was good!! sweat alot! yeah!

That friday went to register HAIRSPRAY musical. Its a broadway musical that will be performing in Singapore.
Went to Tantric with Daen.
Was an eye-opener that night...loL!....


times these days are boring
making myself busy.. =(


i really hope things would be the same like how we were.
can't say your pushing me aside but your leaving me aside.
i don't know. maybe i'm wrong.
i want you to talk to me...
i would like to share and hear your worries.=(




loving you.
missing you.. =(

Had 4x100m heats.
Got first and obviously into the finals. =))
Head for OFA and ISS lesson.
Had vocals rehersals and head home to study now..

Heard things which i would not wanna hear.
I don't know what to do now.
Things "it" said before i don't know whether to trust "it" anymore.
I thought "it" would be the different from the rest .
But maybe , i was wrong...
I am very disappointed with "it" (if things i heard was true) and dAmn disappointed with myself. =(
i am so floating in air right now.
i have no directions to go to and face.
i felt the feelings we had had difted and distance were so far away.
is that how once we had gonna end like this?
when a friend of mine told me about "it"
i felt cheated.... =(
at that point of time i so wanted to cry.
but i held back...
GO TO HELL WITH MYSELF~!



I'M MISSING YOU...
I'M LOVIN YOU...

Had 4x400m run.
Ran with Wanda, Yvonne and Shazlina
got 2nd and going to finals... Tough run.Before that had pulled my muscle.=(
Then ran for 400m. Got 3rd and going to finals too....oh ma....Finals this thursday.Hope my muscle strain will be better by then.
Knees are soring. As in pain and sore now....
Good work peeps... =)


Tml....
4x100m ONLY. running with Im, Seri and Yvonne. AHAH!
Had vocals rehersal. dance somemore...
Then have to be home to study...
tests and exams coming...
Brain squeeezing too much already.
Aite off to study now. chao....





i missed the connection i had with you before... =(
missing you...
loving you...

Had lesson.
Briefing for tml's running event.
Will be running 4x400m in the morning.
Then 400m in the afternoon.
That "nice" mr.mani put me in 400m. =_='''
no choice but had to run.
and then wed 4x100m
then went for lunch. And to watch semi-finals floorball.
Then to basketball training.
Rained heavily. Did physical.
then to netball training. Ball work and physical..
Pulled my adductors magnus muscle. loL!...
Aite shall not talk much no more....
offf nowww.... =)








missing you.
loving you so much....

k
Went to study at esplanade with a bunch of small kids.
Getting prepared for our coming test.
Study and study...whole afternoon...dying soon.....
went to cineleisure made sth.. =)
to go Far east plaza had dinner. Lucky did not see that Simei AH simei GUY again...very scary eh~loL!...
tHEY went pooling while i sat to watch. Went home later tht




Saturday.
Musical day...
Had a whoole morning of GREASE practise then head to TM to had lunch
and here i am home......
STEP UP movie is starting soon on TV! haha!
off to watch.... =)







Missing you loads...
loving you loads... =)

See how hardworking we are studying! =)

all de small boys. =)

Khalil and i

Haha! Had performance...
due to sore throat, drank lots of water before performance.
AVA damn bad not professional at all...
do things do damn slow.Sung half way power failure. ANGRY! lOL!
Guess we need to pray before every performance to prevent from such shit happens. =)

went to watch Wati and Ray's soccer final match. They lost. =( but it was a tough fight haha!
Went to town to buy slippers with classmates.
Had dinner at Long Jhon. Then came this guy again we saw last week whom we don't know came saying EH, SIMEI AH SIMEI! haha!
This time he says EH ITE AH! haha!
Damn siao eh...
we quickly had our dinner and left normally.
He kepy looking at us.
And when we left, he waved at us. But we left without looking at him haha!!!...... GILER!


Back home...Gotta study.
Exams are comin in 2 weeks time! fast eh!
aite . I'm gone! =)






Am loving you.....
missing you!!!!!

Lazy ta blog these days kakaka!
aite~ i'm back. =)
Had Performancees....
Matches...
Floorball match last week.
Had on yesterday
Tht was a good game actually.
Though we lost. 4-5 but we lost with dignity and pride. =)
I admit. training was not even less than 4.
But compared to last week match, we did well...
kaka!
My knees are like giving way. nvr wear guard. lol!>..
Guess i have enough time to rest.
Now is the time to study.
Test is like next friday.
THEN! EXAMS ARE LIKE IN 2 WEEKS TIME!!!!!
close man CLOSE!!!!!!

Voices are losing.
Having sore throat.
Guess its due to the screaming on Tuesday's match haha!
Guess i'll have ta drink more WATER. =)


OH YA! I'M DAMN PISSED WITH PEOPLE WHO PUTS PRIVATE BLOG.
i MEAN. WHAT DOES YOUR BLOG FOR? FOR PEOPLE TO SEE RIGHT???
IF YOU WAN IT PRIVATE THEN WRITE IT ON A DIARY BETTER AITE? LIKE THAT NO ONE WILL SEE IT. LOCK IT WITH A SMALL MINI LOCKER BETTER.
ON AND OFF PRIVATE? FOR WAT? IS THERE STH TO BE AFRAID THAT YOUR SAYING ABOUT SOMEONE EH...FRENS FRIENDS~ PLEASE DON'T DO THT. IF DO SO! , DUN ASK ME TO LINK YOU. HEE! 100% APPRECIATED =)
nO HARM TO ANYONE. SO DON'T TAKE IT TO HEART.
ITS JUST OF HOW I FEEL. =)




OFF TO LISTEN TA SONGS... WEEE~ =)




I'M SO MISSING YOU.
I'M SO LOVING YOU. =)

National Day was yesterday.
Went to study.
See a little of fireworks and went home.
"How i wish you were there to watch fireworks with me...=("
BUt your working. so....oh well...=(

Tml's holiday...
Tests, Exams , Game matches are starting soon.
Need enough rest.
Falling sick in no time.




Missing you.
Loving you loads....

HAD PERformance .
Sung malay song.
Heard outcome was good. =)
But i personally felt that there was more to it.
Went for floorball training.

Performed again today.
AV AT AMPhiteatre but did ayhow and dunno wat to do.
first 5 mics
then 4mics
then now! 3 .
worse! we cannot move around
Even worse was they turned the music again...
Pissed off hor!!!!
Waited this long then give us kns.!@

this jeans is ok =)
haha

Met up with netballers today.
Playing firecracker.
How i wish i could celebrate National Day with him too. =(
Really happy to speak to him last night. =)

Look mixed blood

hANDSOME JJ .

tHIS PIC WAS TAJEB BRRIGTAN NTHE PRTOVIX ,E

pICTURe taken b4 performance and in class pripresentation

Had floorball match today.
Its my first day as a captain for team 2.
Scared and excited.
ITE TAMPINES floor is damn slippery ah...
no fiction. kns! loL!..
we lost though.
i nearly scored a goal in the first third.
my teammates tried afew attempts too...
good try team 2. =)
But lose with dignity.
A few of our team mates lost their temper because the opposition team was very aggrresive loL!
Saw Zul. hurhur! Glad to see him.
Oh welll
Rushed down to SGH to visit my grandad.
His feeling fine and can be discharged tml.
Soon to visit him again. =)
Grandad. I love you. =)
please rest more ok. dun make me worry. =(











loving you...
missing you...

Lessons ~ blah blah blah....
Abit pissed with people who dun comes to skl and then when got project come then says until his very confident as if he knows whats goin on. wth can.
Its understandable for people who has reasons because of family prob but he...oh ma....shut your arrogance ....

Went to town with classmates Muhairin, Shane, Khalil, Eddie, Youri, Izzudin for dinner.
Once we stepped into Far East Plaza.
Came 2 malay people.
1 looked like chinese. 1 looked like indian malay.
they came talking to youri. Till we all though it was his friend.
But it wasn't haha!
Then came to talk to me and my classmates saying: " simei (or rather TIMEI) ah ...huh. we also . eh simei ah simei"
haha!
as we walked away from them, they took the escalator up and whistled to us. kakaka!
We quickly took stairs to the last floor, thinking that we would hide away from them.
BUT! the moment we turned left, biam! they were there!
They came up to us saying :" eh simei eh. Dun go this shop. Support our shop ah. Better. Go try our food there. nicer. Eh , you see this fucker there, (refering to the other shop boss). See his hair.( his center hair in botak). Too much MSG already. dun go there no good. lol...
THEN they left. We went to the shop that he says not to go to.
AGAIN! they appeared! saw us. Stood infront of the shop look at us. Then one came in and says i pay all ah...ah la~ bluff you wan la. loL!....
KAYSIAO! VERY SCARY EH!
worst of all!!!!
he spoke to me : eh girl, that stick. you play hockey huh?
i say : huh its, floorball.
loL!!!
hohoh!!!!



back home early. Slept awhile and here am i awake. gotta study ltr. =)



missing you loads...
loving you loads.... =)

Went to meet up with Hui min at bugis.
Walked around bugis street and parco lOL!>..
Shopped alot today.. quite (to destress)
Met up with Jess and Adeline at Airport terminal 3 ate popeye
laughed alot alot ....
After this week. Shall really really study ler...
Matches coming up.
Grandad went into hospital again.
Gonna visit him tml. Hope his fine.
Extremely worried for him...
Sigh~







missing you.
loving you loads.

Had a 3 on 3 SPORT MANAGEMENT basketball with cLass PA and seniors class...
QUITE pissed with how the way its organized.
Yes, we people are late but in the end. They should gather us and tell us whats going on and whose playing against with who. We reached there also wai tand wait. wHICh it should not be. Sorry , didn't mean anything. =) But just pointers.

Rushed straight to bathe and meet the vocal groupies to go to conrad hotel for performance.
Was at Conrad hotel practically the whole day from afternoon till night.
Dressed as a peranakan lady. loL!
Wore a wig with lots of pins and spray.
Makeup.
Corset.
Talking corset!
loL! i wore a corset from my friends want.
The boobies size are too big because she puts silicone inside for performance. hhaha! Till i have to stuff tissues inside like lol! looks so fake and DISTURBING!!!! HAHA!
SUNG our last song while rehersing and performance. AFEW of us went tearing away. loL!
That was like really a moment and an experience.
I can foresee that our vocal group will have even much more bonding to go. Because we still have Bangkok trip , arts music performance and GREASE musical to go through.... Thats alot.
Came home late night. Shagged~







no matter how busy you and i are.
I just wanna let you know
you'll always be the one i have in mind.ALWAYS~

See how long the lashes are! LAWAL right! loL! hohoho!

CLASSMATES. =)

ME AND NATRI.

Liyana and Youri.

Taken by Eddie(monyet)

Muhairin with his national bag.


LOVE YOU .

MISSING YOU LOADS LOADS LOADS.