Late for school loL!...
Jac and i woke up late. keke!
Had ISS, BFD presentation
Vocal rehersal for tml.
Then for interschool Floorball.
Lost both matches... But its alright..
was asked to go for floorball training and match too...
we kept playing and playing...
whoo..tired. Needs stamina sey..loL!...
Match will be next tuesday yeap. loL!
Just got home.
Haven bathe. BUT ! am bathing soon . haha!
Ohk off now...













I guess your avoiding me isit?
not even a message you replied to me. =(
Missing you.
Loving you loads.

Lesson.
Rehersal.
Training.
Dinner.
Home.
Study.
Slack.



Are you avoiding me or something?
I really wanna know, its just so simple.













missing you loads..
loving you even loads..

Nice weather today .
But it would be great if were to go to sentosa haha!
Free time till 4pm for OFA exam...
ate POPEYE with classmates

Went back to school to get ready.
OFA exam sucked....
I got stuck at this particular question for quite a while...
Out of 5 sheets done. I have done 4 only. loL!...
Chart nt done yet. Jinx!
i dunno how well/bad i score...
hope it wun be any bad as D. Perlease.....
hohoho!
Went for vocals today for awhile then headed home.
Free period now...








Missing you loads.
Loving you loads...

NAFA test today. Hahah! 2.4KM passed. =) ( i think, i dunno the timing but i guess i did.)
Tired....
Standing Broad jump i got for like a D haha! tried so many times also cannot go further but got improve by 1cm .

Stressed over ISS presentation.
But it was over le haha! yeah...=)
now BFD presentation on thursday...

Had netball training.
Wasn't tired at all...
BUt did abit of running here and there.
Coach was fierce for about after half an hour. heeh! but was alright after that. =)
We dropped alot of balls today.
But nvm do better on wednesday. =)


Dumb dumb ah chua played basketball under the hot sun for like i dunn how long kenna heat stroke. loL! Iced her head somemore...drink more water hor if you ever see my blog JOVENA CHUA YEN NEE!!! HAHAHA!!!!




missing seeing you / talking to you.
loving you.

Let's start from Friday happenings....
Head to school for only 2 lessons. Head to Kallang to rent Ethnic clothes. Sarong Kebaya haha!
Back to school for previewto the teachers singing malay song.
And then rush down to RP to watch ITE's last match against RP haha! was a tough match.
But they won. ITE BBALL PLAYERS, YOU FOUGHT WELL. =)
Celebrated PIPI's (buddy) birthday.
Then head down to Raffles to celebrate Jessica's birthday. HASHAH! WAS FUN! with coach too! loL!...
she hor. loL!! alot nonsense haha!!! oppsss...
i told her to train me hard on monday (which is monday)
cuz i have nt attended her traiing for a week feeling fat le! loL!!...
she also say , i nvr go her training , i will like grow fat haha!!!
Miss pam sent us home. =)


Saturday~
Woke up late for appoint at hospital bt was on time haha!
Rush down to school for vocals.
Attended next for some school events.
Meet wei xiong and talk at simei dessert store.
Have nt seen him for soo long. WE both talked about our probs ya...
we laugh like maddies as usual tht never changes haha!!!
HEADED home..
Helped mum iron clothes...
Knee went hurting again..


Sunday~
went early to sentosa
Its actually a bball outing to sentosa
But hor! only 4 of us only oh.
Phoenix, Daphne , Pinky and me...
Pathetic!
But we had our fun too..
we played frisbee...
played volleyball (borrowed from people wan)
Then played volleyball with the grp of people we borrowed the ball from. haha!!!!
Played bball...
Saw my secondary skl seniors but i think they don't recognized me so nvm.
Suntanned....
While suntanning, there was this group of china man...hah!!!
one wear jeans into the sea haha!
the rest like wear underwear only!!!
one wore like brown underwear. But his underwear looks abit transparent. Once his gt wet like can see the butt ah! haha!!!
Sun was not strong but got red a little heh!
sad was when we bathed finish then the sun starts to come out. Clouds were clear. Damn.....
Later that went to meet Eddie and Shane. They asked me to town. Went meet them awhile. They were busy shopping while i was just window shopping. ahha!
Had pastamania.=)
Down to my grandma's house and here am i at home. =)
HAVE presentations to present and NAFA test haha!
alot of things to do...
But i am fine... able to cope and able to do i am suppose to do...


have not been talking to him.
i dunno what has happened...
i felt like we've been drifted apart.saddening. =(
i dont wish to see this....=(
but if thats the way you want. please tell me.
don't leave me hanging there can?
maybe times have changed. i dunno
but one thing that has not changed is my love & liking for you.
i hope you'll know and understand.



missing you.
loving you always.

Attended lessons
Another presentation work to do. But can cope. =)
Played basketball with Singapore Slingers 3 on 3 haah! They are very tall!!!!

Played around with my lappy during BFD lesson. Nth much to do so took some tupid photos. hohoho!
After skl. played bball with whoever was there.
Went for my rehersals singing malay. Natri kept making me laugh loL!...haha!
Feeling disheartened. if you understand what i mean.

UP0804B CLASSMATES! =)

Wati, me and Landy

Muhairin and Khalil background man loL!

And the guys came to take with us. =)

Then! you see all these MONYETS (MONKEYS)

We just wanna be slim.

I'M FREAKING PISSED

CAN I JUST BE GONE IN THIS WORLD WITH NO MISERY~...

came home late.
was getting ready to do my project.
mum came in with my working schedule ask me to re-adjust again.
at tht time was wat time? 11 plus? made me correct the schedule till 12 plus.
Then i start on my project wat time liao. what time shall i end???
I DUNNO!...
can't she asked me to do it another day.
i dun have time to do that.
damn angry. irritated with her...
sooo stressed can....
i cannot dun do well for my project.
cannot dun do well for my test.
cannot dun do well for my exam...
i'm so afraid...
just like how i did for my BFD. i studied to hard and this is wat i got...
damn....
can i like stop studying and just work??????

well, neither did i wanna do this...i'm soooooooo stress...
alot alot alot alot of things in my mind now...
i dunno who to turn to...
i used to have one listener every night...
but now has gone to nowhere...
i'd just have to "solum" it everynight quietly.
quietly crying everynight i have.




missing you..
loving you....LOADS!

These are pictures of how bored and retard a person can be. =)

Lessons lessons lessons...

Presentation this week...

alot to do. but yap i can cope.

whats to do what first i would know kakaka!

There isn't any "PE" today so had lunch first then when to HUMAN PERFORMANCE LAB to do project. While doing. Muhairin found this particular face mask haha!

take it and play...will show ya the pictures later. VERY RETARDED!

Lesson ended later. Mr Trevor need people to help him with SKINFOLD. its like a calipper and it grab hold of fats on the bodae. loL!...

Mr trevor made markings on my bodae.(IT LOOKS AS IF I'M GONNA GET READAE FOR LIPPO "SUCKTION" )

then he started pinching my bicep. cannot pinch any fats...

pinch my tricep also cannot pinch. loL!...he pinched sooo hard , tht the after effect was a little blue black around the markings haha!. its alright...

results wil be shown tml . haha!

mEEt up with ah chua and ah bao.

Bought POLAR "SUGAR ROLL AGAIN!" ( MY fav! =) )

meet jess and ping. had dinner at SUBWAY. cheng went off with his friend. went home after that.. did project research till i fell alseep. was suppose to go to jac's place to lepak. too tired after all the squeezing of things into my schedule. keep myself busy to stop thinking of things... yes is tired. but i have no choice. =( all i can do is to keep my phone by my side to wait for his call whether or not he calls... =(

was watching the 9pm volleyball show halfway.

a somehow story about this 2 girls who are bestie friends. they fell for the same guy.

the guy unfortnately fell for girl 1. girl 2 was forced to give up on him. but she cun.

on the night of his bdae. girl 2 went to him house. she was drunk b4 tht. in the end she sleep with the guy she likes.Girl 1 was then already his girlfriend. came to his house to surprise him with a cake she baked on her own!.

she felt very betrayed. she then said this sentence. "you guys are all the same. liking girls one after another.. cannot be trusted..." i see this i somehow can understand how she feels..haha! ya its just a show but. when someone has experienced it b4, the scare is there too...lOL!....hohohO!

missing you.

loving you....

Didn't really attend lesson cause had Preview performance for the ministers.
Long day. Shag. Voices soon to die out haha!...
Friends there are aite. =)
Talk and sing ...
I did shuffle today haha!.
and jump dunno wat. Just learnt from Kamsani. =)
Missed training today. Heard there was physical...man! Nvm, shall go on wed. =)


hope your recovering. =)
Love you.
Missing you.

Had a long day to keep myself busy....
Woke up very early to get ready for work.
Reached work by 8 plus to have breakfast.
Coach from 9 to 12 plus...
Had lunch with a student of mine.
Went for Huda's Brother's wedding. It was a last minute thing.
Shy when i went there... First time going for a malay wedding with friends...i shy! haha!
Then went to watch Dark Knight with my classmates...
2 and a half hour close to 3 to watch that show!
Overall was nice la. haha!
tOK train home and here i am haha!
Oh but before that!

i wanna show you blog reader something! haha!

TADA! see this pooh bear! loL!

I dun normally collect POOH BEAR.

But was because they had this machine that was at Marina Square.

My friends tried once , he couldn't get it.

I tried too. did nt get it. But! this particular POOH BEAR! was placing it unside down and looked as if its gonna fall anytime with a big force! ahah!Tried pushing the machine with very littl help from Eddie. Once it fell.. i was so happy! haha! tht i ran away... loL! Eddie took for me loL!....

Yup! and thats that! hoho...

Lookin at the time now. I think his too tired to call...Cuz its around this time he calls...Time changes.....

Missing you loadful...

Your that someone i have in mind. =)

Woke up.
Did house chores....
Went to coach at for an hour at 10.
Then go went to meet ah chua and ah bao.
Then went to meet Jessica. Haha! they wanna surprise jessica...
Jess has attachment at skl. wan me ta tag along so came...
While jessica was having her attachment. We went to simei, ah chua wanna buy her Headphone.
WALKED around. bought new zealand ice cream and eat.
Came back to skl and see how the coaches teached the students...
i see till i nearly fell asleep hah!
left at 7. Then adeline and an qi came too...haha! took bus to tm together and i left from there. Sis is at home alone so came back. =)

Msged him this morning to see if his alright.
Not a reply from him. Kinda pissed.
"Why cun just reply?is it so hard.
your friends msg you, you replied asap.
I msg you. Not even a reply.then wat for i msg you?
I'm just being concern. AND not an ans from you.
i'm not being petty here. i'm just worried. maybe this is the thing that you've changed at??? i dunno." =(

Had a long day...
In skl till morning. then go for practice...

Later that meet Hairi. Go suntec mac and studied...
Sat opposite clark quay...
went home after tht...
We spoke quite alot just now...
things you said while i was thinking made me wanna cry..
but yap, i sucked it up.
I cun cry like a small baby girl...
and my dear hairi did 2 silly things.... loL!...
he gave me a "spring" loL! he has one , i have 1 too (( though mine is slightly big hah! its alright))
i'll appreciate tht spring you gave me... will wear it always... =) THANK YOU LOADS!!!! LOVE YOU...



will always love you...
as always...
my heart only belongs to this someone.
someone whom i have in mind...
and that person is you Hairi. =)

Landy and i.

Class young boys...

Shazali and i.

OFA BOOK!.....

Teaching Jay in EXCEL.

Had performance today.

Wore Baju Kurung haah! friends say, i am tann look like malay . wear buju kurung more like one...

ah beh! no la!!! loL!

Wanted to go for BFD lesson but had to do roleplay. Didn't know there is roleplay too so haha! Relax at cafe 1. haha!

Had Floorball interschool tournament... loL!

Played for the first game i think . Then Mr Azlan, the floorball teacher- in - charge asked us to join floorball. competition in the 5august. My classmates are still deciding. if they are joining i join. loL!....

Netball polite competition coming up. so dun wan it to clash.. =)

I played goal keeper. Safed a ball loL!....

Keep my players alert while making noise at the goal post haha!!!!

While takeing a break. Played Takraw with friends at the back.. haha!

Overall....today's game. We did not lose any...good play team! =)

So lets play more and reach the final =) hurhurhur!

was being asked around how is me and him...

seriously speaking. i dunno...i really dunno dunno!!!!!

we've not talked for 5 days...

i dunno why...

as for me... i think he did not called me because of his project. so i shall not disturb him, or else he finds me irritating...
for what i know now is ... am numbing myself with things on...study....rehersals....trainings...games....everything or anything to keep me feeling heartache....

off to study and reherse my songs ...

missing you....

Loving you loads....Hairi.

Came back home damn late.
Just studied finish. Having performance tml.
Down with a slight flu.
But i can still sing ok!. hurhur!!!...
Shall blog more tml...pics..
Game tml too...

sghhh....



i really miss you soo much....
ur too busy with your work that i don't dare to give you a call...
guess your too tired too....
=((((((((


eversince i met you,
nothings been the same...
and now you got me putting
HEARTS around your name....

Let's see...this pic was taken on del's bdae at city link....they made me carry all these and put on a pin when i wear such a nice dress... hurhur!...i look like a lady crazy for SINGAPORE SALES...!

See this!!!! so paiseh can!!!!.....all thanks to DEL!!!! JASMINE! YUNRU! jESSICA!!!! WTH ! LOl!!

EVIL!

Wat a day.....

UK soccer players came to our school and play today. Did not watch.

Have to be home early to watch my 9p, show and study....

study study study....

Today's topic is on...FOOD NUTRIENTS...

HAHA!

recorded what Mr trevor had taught so can listen and listen...=)

down with short flu...(signness) loL!!!

Had dinner at tamp Long John.

Walked around a little while at TAMP and headed hoome...

His busy these few days....

its wat he has to do...

His projects...projects... and projects....

loving you

missing you, you, you....

Got back my BFD (Business Fundamentals) result...
Guess what... I got a "D".
I was so disappointed with myself...
a "D" ok!... I would expect to get AT LEAST a "B".
See la! now what happen....
Nearly cried.Especially when Mr. Trevor spoke to us. asked us " what happened"
he also said. He hope to expect some people to score an "A" instead of a "D". I hear liao....i guess his refering to some of us including me...
OH MA!....
CANNOT TAKE IT... =(((((((

DEPRESSION!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I CANNot not get a 3 and above for my GPA anymore le...
Messaged Mr Trevor if i ever disappoint him. That i do not know why i would get that score....
etc etc...
He replied : "Its ok. Its done. Main thing now is to learn from your mistakes and do better for the next ones and the exam."
at least i am glad he would reply.
I replied him saying ok, i will...
no one to talk to. =(

Went for POLITE Training...
Hurt my wrist again while taking my water bottle. haha! TupiD!

Aite dun wanna blog already...
I'm so.....UNDER
D . E . P . R . E . S . S . I . O . N! =(


loving you
missing you alot alot alot... =(

See this video.....and listen to the words/lyrics....
very meaningful =(





Incompatible, it don't
matter though
'cos someone's bound to
hear my cry
Speak out if you do
You're not easy to find

Is it possible Mr. Loveable
Is already in my life?
Right in front of me
Or maybe you're in disguise

Who doesn't long for someone to hold
Who knows how to love you without being told
Somebody tell me why
I'm on my own
If there's a soulmate for everyone

Here we are again, circles never end
How do I find the perfect fit
There's enough for everyone
But I'm still waiting in line

Who doesn't long for someone to hold
Who knows how to love you without being told
Somebody tell me why I'm on my own
If there's a soulmate for everyone
If there's a soulmate for everyone

Most relationships seem so transitory
They're all good but not the permanent one

Who doesn't long for someone to hold
Who knows how to love you without being told
Somebody tell me why
I'm on my own
If there's a soulmate for everyone

Who doesn't long for someone to hold
Who knows how to love you without being told
Somebody tell me why I'm on my own
If there's a soulmate for everyone
If there's a soulmate for everyone

Sun sunday
WOKE UP lATE! BUT ain't late for work. haha! There is still time for breakfast heh!
loL!
Every sunday. 2 lessons only. Very bored. Waste my time,waste travel fare. (BUS fare/ train Fare inceasing soon oh!...all because of petrol. ) Waste my temper to get angry at them haha!> But they are kids la....so....oh wel...
Stomache the whole morning till now...dunn wat wrg food have i ate haha! saddist!

Came back home....
go out to study alone before going to my grandma house....
Yes, i do have to study because exam is around ther corner in 1 mths time...But i do have time for friends and loved ones...Cuz i promise to be there for everyone no matter how busy i am...
I CAN MULTITASK! hohoho! =)



loving you
missing you. =(

Went to class in the morning.
Later later come back then meet JOVeNA! jessica for Popeye...
Aiyo! this whole week have been eating for 4 days ! loL!
Evening night went to celebrate Del's birthday.
Had Yuki Yaki for dinner then had Ben 'n' Jerrys
lOL!
Ate alot alot! next week onwards! training starts.... yeah! missing all the traiinings...

~Saturday~
Helped out this event called 'Cycle of Dreams' organized by SMU.
Was at this event practically the whole day ah!
Till my knee cap hurts alot alot. =(
EVent was no good at all...
Organised was bad real bad.
Ok , though our people are late. The SMU never explain to us or like tell us wat to do.
Made us sit down do nth.
Then Jared make a hell lot of noise saying.
"You made us wait never even tell us wat to do.Made my teamates sit here like a fool."
Haha! his words were crude but its good he sound out. BUT! abit scary la hor! loL!
ME?!

i stood around the water fountain.
Do wat?! look after the few balloons to prevent them from taken away by the kids...haha! stupid eh! mADE ME SIT under the hot sun!
And my role? HUMAN RESOURCE! LO!....AHAH!!!
aNYWAYS.... its an event. Plus , i guess SMU organised this event for the first time????
Oh well....
HAHA!
Knees are sore...
Massages please.... =(


studying next week!


Loving you.
Missing you.

Nth much happened today.
Mr Andrew brought his scottish rugby soft toy ball into the class today. Whoever is sleeping or talking he would throw at them. Durng Q&A too! haha!!!
like his soft toy rugby.

Went to gym after school for an hour. loL!....happy!
Had POPEYE again. huh!!!! loL!....oh ma!
All the calories i've lost has gone back! loL!
But went back home clearing my bowels, so its good! haha.
Have to study soon.....REAL SOON!


guess his busy these day....=0


missing you. loving you.

Weather is not sunny at all today. But was very cloudy and it rained this morning.
The moment i sat the dark clouds. was wondering if his side was raining too...
Texted him a msg reminding him to bring jacket cuz its gonna be cold during lecture.
I actually forgot to bring mine instead haha!.
HPL ( Human PerformANCE lAB ) was cold! loL!
Handed up my PPT project. loL!
At least 1 work load off....*phew*
2 more to go. haha!!!!
3 Chapters to followup!

Went ta the gym! loL!
Ate POPEYE too!!! love the bread! love the fries! love the chicken too!!! hhaha!
Tml shall run....loL!



Loving you always. =)

Pissed , irritated...

Furby, Jessica, Yunru, Del, Jasmine, Ah chua, Ah bao, Ray etc...
now i know how your feel when i fell asleep while your were talking....

Its sounds as if i am very boring each time when i'm talk.
If thats the case. very well...


i wish things were as normal as before like we can talk as much as we want....
u sound as if you have nth to talk to me...


I may not see you everyday.
I may not talk to you everyday.
I may not hug you everyday.
BUT! I JUST WANT YOU TO KNOW I DO MISS YOU ALOT EVERYDAY.







how tired can you be????
maybe i'm too moody i guess...
XUETE!
SAD IN A MISERY...
SELF DECLARE DEPRESSION.

Done on our BFD role play plan. Gotta typed it out.
Headed for PE. lOL!
She made us run and run. sprint loL! but was fun la. haah!
Bathe.
ISS project.
Sian...alot of thing to do.
After doin everything till evening.
wEnt up to the hall to find jess.
loL~
playing badminton.
End up, im and us ended up playing too hurhur!!!
Went home to catch my 9pm show!!! hahah!!!!
happy to watch it.

Gotta do my powerpoint soon....
sigh..
just sigh....

missing you
loving you always. =)

I......................HAD A DAY !
first day of school......do my powerpoint project.
Had lunch .....head for BFD (Business Fundamentals)
We had to do a short scenerio of a bad customer service.
I was the customer and had to be abit rude with an accent. haha! Quite load of a fun. =)
ISS(Introduction of Sport Science) Done our assignments which we have to present tml.
I see the book i got scared! its like exams will be comin like in 1 mth time??? i think? Very very fast! and alot to study ok!!!!
Very scared!
There is a new co-teacher . Her name is Miss Elaine. Saw her wearing NYP shirt , so i guess she studied sport and wellness there. Shall ask her more about the course there. Cause thats where i wanna go after higer nitec. =) haha!

Went to had dinnner at POPEYE with Shillah, Wati, Eddie and Shane.
They gave me leftover mashed potatoes that they can't fininsh and fries too!!! its like a 3 PACKS OF MAC fries! oh ma!!!!
Welll, ate till i cannot take it not because i'm full. but because its kinda cold so it does not taste nicer already. loL!!!.....All thanks to them....hurhur......( kns! )

Back home. Ready to watch de 9pm beach volleyball show and at 10pm!!! Prison Break! Micheal Scofield! =)

Wondering whats his doing now. ( Thinking of him. =) )
Hope your all right with your studies....


Miss you
Loving you as always.

*Blur* A few of my classmates... Which shane calling it as "A BUNCH OF IDIOTS" hurhur!

~Sunday~

Woke up damn early to go for work. Took bus 5 all the way down to Tiong Bahru, like for an hour.

Worked. worked.

2 of my students cried. loL!>..not me fault. Well, they somehow were unwillingly to swim well. scared of the deep pool and kept grabbing me till they pinched me haha!....

Took bus 5 back to pasir ris. I sat like forever. Slept in the bus...shiok! but paiseh haha!

this time sat like for 1 and a half hour oh!

Went to pasir ris and bought myself 2 top. happy.=)

Need ta buy shorts.

Came back without having lunch. Keep it for dinner.

Went to Katong because dad wanna buy LD. so yeap.

I passed by this HANDBAG shop and it sells walet too.

There was this wallet brand called BOLNIO huh? dunno how its pronounced loL! Its sold for $90.

but the lady gave me discount at $70! cheap! but a little ex hah la.

Asked my mum. she says no very ex oh.

sian...=(

Am looking for wallet that has more than 2 windows. Wallets of mine are tearing. not in good condition le. =(

Went ta grandmother's house for dinner. Granddad was feelin much better.

Hope so. =)

Schools starting tml!

Then i heard it was youth day tml!>

And i thought it would be a holiday for us. No man!.

Oh dear! haha! my aunt says i am no more youth already!

Perlease! i may be herm..."20" but i am still young loL! =)

missing you.

loving you.

This song is Sung by Phil Collins. The movie " Tarzen"

heard this song at my grandma's house when was watching disney channel.

haha! then realise! hey the lyrics are meaningful especially to people whom you love..

yes. thats' what i wanna say...

sing it to the person you loved but mean it! =)

"You'll Be In My Heart"

Come stop your crying

It will be all right

Just take my hand

Hold it tight

I will protect you

from all around you

I will be here

Don't you cry

For one so small,you seem so strong

My arms will hold you,keep you safe and warm

This bond between us

Can't be broken

I will be here

Don't you cry

'Cause you'll be in my heart

Yes, you'll be in my heart

From this day on

Now and forever more

You'll be in my heart

No matter what they say

You'll be here in my heart, always

Why can't they understand

the way we feel

They just don't trust

what they can't explain

I know we're different but,deep inside us

We're not that different at all

And you'll be in my heart

Yes, you'll be in my heart

From this day on

Now and forever more

Don't listen to them

'Cause what do they know

We need each other,to have, to hold

They'll see in time

I know

When destiny calls you

You must be strong

I may not be with you

But you've got to hold on

They'll see in time

I know

We'll show them together

'Cause you'll be in my heart

Yes, you'll be in my heart

From this day on,

Now and forever more Oh, you'll be in my heart

No matter what they say

You'll be in my heart, always

Always

Here are some pics but the rest i think will let the rest update in their blog. =)

Nerdy pic with jessica =)

Us i the kiddies place.

A day at sentosa

See de flower!? haha!

Went running.

Sorry if i was moody. I feel kinda leftout. But its alright. I'm fine. =)

see these words....
these song would make me hell sob (cry)


Oh I had alot to say
Was thinking on my time away
I miss you and things weren't the same
'Cause everything inside it never comes out right
And when I see you cry it makes me wanna die.

I'm sorry i'm bad, i'm sorry i'm blue
I'm sorry about all the things I said to you
And I know I can't take it back
I love how you kiss, I love all your sounds
And baby the way you make my world go 'round
And I just wanted to say i'm sorry.

This time I think i'm to blame
It's harder to get through the days
We get older and blame turns to shame
'Cause everything inside it never comes out right
And when I see you cry it makes me wanna die.

I'm sorry i'm bad, i'm sorry i'm blueI'm sorry about all the things
I said to youAnd I know I can't take it back
I love how you kiss, I love all your sounds
And baby the way you make my world go 'round
And I just wanted to say i'm sorry.

Every single day I think about how we came all this way
The sleepless nights and the tears you cried
It's never too late to make it rightOh yeah Sorry!
I
'm sorry i'm bad, i'm sorry i'm blue
I'm sorry about all the things I said to youAnd I know I can't take it backI love how you kiss, I love all your sounds
And baby the way you make my world go 'round
And I just wanted to say i'm sorry.
I'm sorry baby.I'm sorry baby.I'm sorry.

Woke up early just to go for training though at that time i was having flu.
Too my upmost disappointment. Only 4 turned up. 2 juniors came only then.
Heard was some mis-interprete of msg ba. i dunno. oh well...

Went home, changed.
Meeting Ray at Outram to she can accompany me to visit my granddad who was hospitalized.
Then!!! My mum called and say dun take to outram already go to city hall instead and to ang m kio.I went "huh!?" why now then say?! i reached already. " then she says never call to see if his discharged anot. So she say nvm oh.
So i called up my granddad. Spoke to him. Why discharge to fast? i so wanted to see you eh. =( he says its alright ba. Then i said, aite, i see you this sunday. yup.

Went to netball chalet. Looking forward to it.
Went for a swim in the pool under such a nice sun.
Started barbequeing, eating and talking.

Spoke to him.
somethings seems weird. i dunno wat, asked him is everything alright. "ya"
u ok? "ya"
everything nothing, ok, ya, alrught. But the tone and everything doesn't sound right.He doesn't want to speak up. =(
Thinking if can meet him today. He said see how and confirm with me. But to my thinking. I think we are not meeting. Cuz he confirm will always turn up to nt meeting up.


Then!!! later night....everyone started to go into small little groups and talk. Some drank until they're drunk. Talk and talk, cry and talk , cry and talk.
I've seen this group crying le.Understood...
Then pass by, see another one cry. then another and another....waleu....
i dun turn emo also cannot ah. But i just kept neutral. =)
well. i'm glad i controlled my liqour.
dirnking does not solv everything.
Yes, it will make you sober and numb your feelings your feeling now. But its all in a period when your drunk thats all...AAFTER that? feelings will come back so no use drinking.


Kinda disappointed that this chalet was suppose to be a good one, cuz miss pam somemore planned this chalet and not to see ppl drunk but it does happens.
I see liao i heart pain. i have no words to say or describe about things like tht.

Went home. Sleep. Tired.
Then msg received. To meet up some other time.
*sigh*
i went to have abit of nap , because i was somehow tired at the same time. I knew he would say tht i do not have enough sleep so meet another day.
*sigh....bleah!!!!!!!*
true enough...
i have nth to say.
*ok, control emotions. dun cry ...shhh...*
i cun say much cuz one, we are not together.
two, i dun wanna like force him into anything he does not wants or decides...
three, it takes 2 hands to clap to make things work . and if i am the one clapping or wad. The other is not it does not work. and thats SADDENING!
I dun wanna say anymore.

Woke up unconsiously at 9 plus.
Cannot wake. Throat was sore, having flu.
Aiyo yoyo...why like that!? just recover from fever and it becomes like tht kns! lOL!!!
In the end~ i did not go for my swimiming in skl.
I think charlene is gonna think i am giving excuses again. lOL!!!>.
but i really cannot ah...sigh....
oh well, i think it was because i had too much cheese in my paste and i ate so fast. lOL!!!
Lets get this overdone with. I don't wish to fall sick anymore so perlease!!!!!
At home nth to eat. So had a coffee cake thts all...which is not enough for me...
feeling so bored and weak at home....goona visit my granddad...=)
hope his alright....
oh well, i guess i gotta start on my skl work already. Schools starting next week!!! argh!

Miss you soo much. =(

Woke up damn early to coach a new student near my house for $40 a lesson. good eh!
haha!
later that. went to sentosa with Ah chua, Jessica and Hui Min.
It was nearly cancelled due to the bad weather in the morning.
But in the afternoon was soooo good till we got sun burned...
Went for True Yoga complimentary (HOT YOGA)
they accompanied me.
waited for me like close to 2 hrs.
The guy la talk to me for 1 hr. wth! they end up sleeping for about 50 mins haha! at the sofa...
Sorry man...
Went to eat.
As we were talking.
There came this negro guy passing by us and kept looking at our direction. As we leave, he winked at me.. lOL!!!! so as a friendly gesture i smiled back then.

Went to far east plaza. Shopped.
loL!
Its been long since i shopped already...
Shop shop!!!!
shop!! hahah!!!
k la...hey dey! Budget ok! must save money!!!!! money not easy to come by!!! loL!>..

Yoga was alrigth.. really sweat like no one's business.
after that. Tht guy kept holding me back. The way he speaks, he insist me on joining as a member today!
NONSENSE! LOl!
so ex oh!
Gueess how much!?
Joining fee = $500
external=$125
monthly=$210
plus gst
so overall???
$1000 plus eh!
thats madness!!!!
for the cost of $1000 plus i can buy many things and do alot of things...
no way am i gonna spent money on tht. =)
One of the yoga stretch made my kneecap feeling very sore....=(
sigh...


I missed the times i go out with him. =(