Welcome BACK!!!

It's been a few months i have not update my blog.

That's becuz i have been busy with school eversince skl start.

Since 15th of july school has started.

Projects / assignments i shall say has been piling up.

But we managed to pull it through .

Through out months of schooling and seeing my classmates everyday, i gt to make a group of good friends...

I'm glad to say they are a group of people who dun take jokes serious...

They are all open to talk about anything...

Crazy bunch of people.. lol!

And now my exams are over and so is semester 1 !

Having a month break till the next brain cracker starts again.

=)

Look at these 2 pictures.

One manly, one boyish...
Yeap... thats my boy.
Hahah!
Been thinking how much have we've both grown.
Well, i shrink a little.
HE! has grown...ALOT. loL!
From the time i've known him till now...
I must say i'm quite impressed with him...
That i dun have to becoz of little things i nag at him.
For he knows wats his doing and wats best for him.
Of all choices i made most of the time was wrg...
But falling in love with him and not giving up on him from the past till now,
was the best choice i've ever made...
I've nvr fallen for someone so much deep...
I've nvr cried soo much for someone ...
I've nvr cared for someone so much...( i mean i do care for everyone)
But his is special...
I need to take care of his health..
His HEART esp...
Because his heart holds everything...
If without him, i wun have good advice...
If without him, i dunno how much wiser i've got..(loL!)
If without him...
I cannot dun have him by myside da...
His that so PRECIOUS to me...
Someone i could talked everything about...
Someone whom i dun have to feel shy about
Someone whom i dun have to pretend to make it perfect infront of.
Cuz i have my own flaws too and was way many...
For he accepted my flaws..
my stupidity dumb and gong gong actions...
I dunno wats the right word to describe to him...
But his just the MR.RIGHT for me...
to walk down the wedding aile...
to walk down the long journey with me...
to walk down our ups n downs...
to walk down till we grow old....
For death will not do us apart too...
Forever in my heart.....
MY HEARTS CLOSED FOR U.... =-*

SIDE track....
skl's starting next week!
wee!
excited yet scared...
Excited cuz i finally get to touch books and crack brains and hold a pen!
scared cuz i dunno wat the ppl there r gonna be like.
plus i scared i cannot do well... nevertheless, i'll do my best for i dun wanna fail my parents anymore...
commitments....
all , i have to cut down..
i'm sorry if i have to turn certain things down...
but its for my studies sake...
i cun have too many things at a time...
West side story n studies are the prioirites...
family i have to have time for them...
FRIENDs at time...
but most importantly , time spared for my syg too...
Thats the biggest commitment i have to take....
well, nt commitment but is a must one.
For certain relationships out there...
too afraid of commitments and other stuff...
relationships are at loss...
Y with tht decision...
dun ur think its too hasty to cut out sth like tht cuz of other commitments...
To break off for a reason cuz too stress with other stuff...
that needs a breather to take...
That wld be the most dumbest thing to do...
If ppl decides to loss a relationship for tht...
its hard to get back...
Chances are given but not always...
so do treasure....

A TOUGH WEEK back then and it ENDS this WEEK AWESOMELY!....

I'm lost for words...

and i'm glad i had Iskandar being my life-time partner.

Never had i tot ,wat went through last week, we had it all sorted out...

I'm so glad his understanding.

Yes he might be a little here n there but .

Ya see, thts where the gf has to step in to ease the situation.

I can be as ego as anyone else to say its not my fault.

But tht way wun help for the both of us...

I just feel tht...

i have to be always by ur side no matter wat happens...

and when we hold on, things will get better...

Not only to love him / concern him about his everyday life.

But his feelings

his everything.

Talking is nothing tht we talked about like how r u yada yada...

but we talked about everything .

Eeverybit... not keeping things from one another

Having to trust each other is as impt too...

and u see ..

My syg has it all...

For no one can ever be compared to him..

In every relationship i fall into....

i always look far because i am sincere and believe tht if i am sincere in my relationship and be faithful the other will do the same too

Things hasn't been going well till i found and fall for u...

As the first time when we get to know one another..

i was so afraid i wld be cheated for the i dunno how many times...

but then..

i came to realise...

that there can be many man out there with so much to have but cheats the other half...

But u....

U are the special one who doesn't cuz hah! i dunno why but i had soo much faith in u n trust in u...

and u never fail to make me love u even more.

Instead, u make me for who i really am...and learn to love u whole heartedly no matter wat stands in the way...

All the while i thought i had a bad love life with such a short love life span....

but i am grateful to have known u...

my malay boy... =D

AND me SLOWLY getting in to know about islam...

For i am willing to learn gradually in time.. =)

FOR u my love...

being with u is the best thing tht happened to me...

If having u leave me one day...

i could nt imagine how things will turn out to be for me...

it'll all be into darkness again like how orchard went flooding yesterday...

N i remembered the time when i cried so badly for u...

made me don;t wan to loose u anymore...

not even for once...

For i have gave my whole heart to you.. =)

=-*

I, myself am IMPERFECT too,

cuz i have too many FLAWS too...

thats why i need ur help to be by my side to correct me too...

=(

Believe it or not...
I've known and been with him for more than about 2 yrs 2 mths or so?
and i'm still loving him strong.
Despite his NS schedule, busy meetings and etc.
I'm still staying strong in the loop to love him no matter what.
HUH!!! wat!? malay?
TAU TAK PE...
color , race doesn't matter...
i love him for who he is is most impt.
So wat if i fall for someone of the same skin colour n race bt just someone i cannot communicate with or anything at all??
COrrect!
Furthermore...
he and i can talk about anything without feeling shy not to share...
AIn't tht great!
a guy like him...
he may be young (by a yr)
but matured.
His just perfect in everyway for me.

He thinks wat i think...
I think wat we think..
bt if ever we have any issues to talk about.
We'll sort things out...
like miss bel says...
" IF U WANNA WORK THINGS OUT , U HAVE TO SORT THINGS OUT AND NOT DRAG THE ISSUE..."
THis way... ppl live happily ever after...
n i totally belive wat miss bel says...
readers, u can say we dun quarrel all the time how to know one another better?
well...
dun quarrel means nt good.
but good too cuz we understands one another n give in.
not only to that but to talk to each other with respect.
I think thts the most important.

and i APPRECIATE him whenever, wherever, whatever he is /are...
n i'll always love u...
=)

ps: i'm sorry for wat happened...

FEEEE FAAAAIIII FFOOOOO FFUUUMMm!!!

A week to spare...

and wasted...

coming this week...

i'm so gonna start going gym like 4 times a week ...

gotta keep tht..

gotta keep tht..

gotta keep tht..

gotta keep tht tht tht...

boom boom boom going..

start doing up english...

start reading novels again.. ( oh i miss tht!)

start up on my vocals..

start up on alot of things... it just keeps the list on going.

But wat keep the list on going too,

is the time n plans i'm gonna spend with my dear too...

so many things he had ahead in mind that i could not even count.. but its a good thing...

at least my other half has plans in mind hohOH!

so does it leaves me lazing around?

i bet he wun allow tht! loL!...

like i say:"When time comes for u to give ur heart to someone, make sure u select someone who will never break ur heart, cuz broken hearts has never spare parts"

and his someone i'll never give my heart away for someone else.

Cuz my heart belongs to him.

Lately....

things has been messing around in my mind non-stop...

so many things which i dunno where to start from.

haven been sleeping tht well...

i miss skl...

i miss all my frens...

i miss my classmates...

i miss the times when i sing everyday like no bodies business...

i miss going down for showchoir..

i miss seeing my grandparents the most =(((

as much too...

i miss seeing syg...

all these misses has collade up to the brim which even a shopaholic i can pass through...