First n foremost.

I'd like to say HAPPY NEW YEAR TO EVERYONE! =)

Its the second day of CNY.

N i am home.

Dead boring...

No visiting today n tml.

All i'll be doing is to stay home watch tv.

Control the amount of cravings that is put at home.

Study.

And exercise...

Since i'm home today n tml.

I shall be discipline abit run...

I mean, i have been eating rice for the past 4 days! man! dun gain weight. YA RIGHT!

Apart from looking forward to receive Red packets.

What i am really looking forward for is meeting my syg.

Gosh..geees, i haven been seeing him for close to 2 weeks...

Missing him so much...

N soon i'll be seeing him on a sunday. But tht is just for rehersals, not a date...pfft..

But soon sooon... after the 12 feb it'll all be mine...

next stop.

These days...

been mumbling about friends...

sigh...

its so hard tht i dunno where to start or how to start...

i just think that.

Everyone has their own issues.

That whether or not ur happy or unhappy.

We shld speak up n nt keep our mouth shut.

When we do, so much so that certain things tht are nt true were open or lead from BIG MOUTHS tht made it spat upon to uneccessary problems.

Which leads to such a headache n a pain in a ass....

I dun wanna say anymore cuz its been buggin me for days

That when i can actually celebrate my CNY happily, i've been sulking and thinking about it most of the time.

With the add on for me not meeting up my syg...

I think i shall not continue anymore.

I shall stop here.

Till then.

Its been months since i haven been updating my blog.

BECAUSE it's giving me problems.

whats been happening these days to me?

Before 2010 ends...

that week was a disaster.

But it ends well on the last day because i spend my countdown with my syg...

Then comes the first week of 2011.

Hmm, first few days was fine. Family relations. Not bad.

But other stuffs were involved.

Say relationship.

My syg and i were nt having problem.

Well, its the people around.

Seee, our relationship aren't like normal relationships with normal problems.

Its problems with people against our relationship and all..

Its been hard on me at the first week of 2011.

But still, its not gonna bring me down.

Even if it takes 30 over people disapprove us.

There is still more than a million approve. The world.

Wats most important is our hearts are in one.

Till then, we both will work very hard to show it to those who don't believe in our relationship.

To people who believe in our relationship.

I thank you and i appreciate your support.

To those who don't nevermind...

I wun be lost. But U are makin me stronger to prove ya'll how we can make the "not gonna happen" situation making it to HAPPEN!.

Well, i gotta say, i feel sad for ya'll cuz ya'll don't understand what or how much it takes to love someone u really love.

I'm not saying, seeing each other everyday or all the time means they really love you.

But me n my syg... we don't.

AND TO CLARIFY to people who thinks

I SEE MY SYG ALL THE TIME!

Let me tell ya we don't get to see each other all the time.

We don't get to see each other everyday.

We don't get to talk on the phone everyday before to sleep.

what we have was LOVE, UNDERSTANDING, TRUST, MATURITY and lots more!

Thats what it take for us to love each other this long.

SO PLEASE MIND WHAT U SAY!

BEFORE SAYING MY RELATIONSHIP!

LOOK AT YOUR RELATIONSHIP FIRST.

IF ITS THAT PERFECT, LET ME KNOW.

I AM MORE THAN WILLING TO SHARE MINE TOO!

THERE....

whats happened this week.

I'm gonna put it behind but i'll never gonna let it go

cuz IMMA PUT IN EXTRA WORK TO MAKE IT A MIRACLE TO HAPPEN.

YA'LL JUST WAIT N SEE.

IT WON'T TAKE 1 WEEK, 1 MONTH, 1 YEAR.

BUT SO LONG AS ME N HIM AREN'T BROKEN...

WE'LL MAKE IT...

For i'd like to look forward to the comin 2011.

so don't spoil mine before i spoil URS! =)

PFFFT!

to end off this update...

I'D like to say i love my syg so much...

and i'll do whatever it takes...

nothings gonna stop me.

its like as much as i love singing...

NO ONE.

no one can stop me only myself.

N if i nvr stop myself.

means i'll nvr stop loving

TESTING!

WHOOO! Finally it ends with a good weekend!

Like i said from the previous post...

i have so much to say...

i just think that if i put whatever happens behind and accept wat you are cause u cun just shove someone away if they are different from you..

i tried... i REALLY TRIED.

But from what i see these whole week during EVERY session...

i see that i was being ignored..

Not that i wanna make a fuse out of it.

I made an effort to talk to you.

I asked certain things..

i was being ignored like as if i was not there...

or best still ur just talking to that one PARTICULAR person all the time...

Ook, then where do we all stand DAMN!

YOU DUN JUST SHOVE US ALL ASIDE..

AND WHEN NEEDED TO TALK TO US U OPEN UR DAMN POUCH MOUTH!..

I am glad tht i am not the only 1 or 2 person who noticed...

Is just tht ur being unfair...

if u just wanna talk to just 1 ! person!

then Saifen us all out then...

I see how u handle when its gone...

Don't think what u appear on the outside is what we see what kind of person u are...

I AM 100% DAMN SURE u are more than what you are...

a 2 face person...

a liar...

a cheater...

an arse...

don't you made me hit to the max of my boiling point till i spill everything out n settle one on one scores with you.

For i dun wanna do that.

So stop being an arse...

what else can i say about you...?

seriously i dunno wat else more can i curse about you.

But i decide not to do so, i dun wanna get karma...

well... i myself ain't one so i dun think i have much to worry about...

And if u think u are the one...

do be glad u are being talked about...

i dun wanna dirty my blog cuz its meant for happy memories...

Like me and my syg...

So buzz off and be true to who you are before i reveal all out..

You've been warned...

(RED CARD!)

SICKENING Yet quite memorable..

sickening was because i fall sick.

Losing my voice...

BUT YET! I GET TO SEE MY SYG BEFORE THE CAMP!

AIN'T THT GREAT OR WAT!

yeap, and oh memorable was because i had WSS camp.

Working with new people in the musical....well, majority of them.

Well, but you know wat...

i think this camp is quite memorable cuz it taught us nt to be selfish, to respect others, positive attitude n plus on communication.

I mean communication sums it up all but yeah.. ya know wat i mean...

preparation for sunday performance during singing lessons...

Its was a hectic one cuz all groups have been stressing on how to finish the songs in just 2 nights..

people get to sleep late. but i'm glad not many complain...

I am very grateful that people are helping one another out....

hmmm, maybe a few bad eggs who dun but oh well...

at least i get to see team work...

despite the fact that we heard scary things n sleep only 2 hrs or less...

our camp was a paid off...

Plus one dun forget.. how much i miss my syg...

hoping he wld be at the camp with me too like the previous camp in GREASE!. Teeheee!

That sums up the whole of last week...

Lets talk about this week...

I notice...

In life, people do get hypocritical and backstabbing one another.

bUT at the end of the day... look at yourself first before opening your mouth..

I admit, i used to be like one of them... (nt the very bad ones, but just touch n go)

but then i realise, people makes mistakes...

accept it n accept for who they are too...

not to spread news and have so much hatred among one another...

being stuck in between, i really dunno wat to do but try not to get involved so much.....

more to be said but i think it'll be scary if i really list examples down here...

BOTTOM LINE....

I'M a nice girl who dun treats people bad...

I dun pretend to have friends just because of benefits...(thats wat i hate the most!)

Dun pretend to be nice to me, cuz once i know...

you'll never wanna see the bad side of me....

bad omens aside...

lets say the good things...

yes!

I LOVE MY SYG! =D

TESTING!