We came.

We met.

We walk.

We ate.

It all just came under silence.

we went speechless eversince....

We both were heart-broken.

We both teared.
We both wish this wasn't the end for us...

We both sacrificed.

Yes, why of all people out there in the world, its has to be us?

why , why ,why?

Yes, it would make everyone happy.

Then what about us?

Can't we be given a chance or blessing by them?

Chance were given to us.

We treasure it.

And it came shattered.

It's just too sudden.

And least expected.

It's fcuking UnFair~

His the one i've long for.

His the one i would want to be with for.

His the one i could turn to for.

His the one whom i can joke for.

His the one whom i treasure for.

His the one whom i would do anything to sacrifice for.

His the one whom i would want to marry for.

His the one whom i would like to be with for eternity for.

His the one that we made big dreams and future together for.

His the one that no one can replace for.

His the one that my love was made purely for him...

His the one...

His the one...

But that his the one....

was all gone...

In just days...

Yes, the best blessing is every mothers' blessing...
But does that makes you happy if your child is ain't happy at all?




9 months before,
i was still searching for tht one...
Till then i found it.
From the bottom of my heart,
It's the most fortunate thing that happened or appear in my life.
Watever typhoon came by, nothing means a big matter to me.
Because he was my pillar of strength to everything.





The river, the pond, the sea, the lake are so wide and long and big...
That fishes are everywhere out there...
But this particular one that made it so special.
That it's the one and only.
That no one can replace it for me.








If only i could turn back in time.
I would be a malay now to be with him.
If only i could turn back in time .
I will see his family regardless of how much critisicm i get from them and get embarressed.
If only chances were to be given again.
IF only we could fight it strong together....
If only....
If only.....








From that very moment i part from him.
Till now, tears had been rolling down my cheeks...
Again and Again.
Heart had been shattered and torn into billions and zillions of pieces....
Again and Again...
Pieces of happy times we shared been running through my mind...
Again and Again....








I am trying to be strong.
But each time i see and think about you...
think about the times we've been through...
think about all the things we've talk about...
It hurts me real bad...





I had to hide my sorrows at home.
And when i started to tear again.
I went running somewhere discrede... solelemely....
I couldn't express that to my family...
The feeling is so unbearable....
Uncontrollable....
I couldn't stand up alone.
I guess neither do you?
I couldn't walk down this aile alone...
I'm like a lost sheep running down every road everywhere...
Endlessly...










If only,
we could hold this on together.
Fight this on together...
Stronger...





As my love for you will not change.
Yes,it may be too early to say now...
But i bet it.
believe me...

I love you
Baby I love you
You are my life
My happiest moments weren't complete
If you weren't by my side
You're my relation
In connection to the sun
With you next to me
There's no darkness I can't overcome
You are my raindrop
I am the sea
With you and God, who's my sunlight
I bloom and grow so beautifully
Baby, I'm so proud
So proud to be your girl
You make the confusion
Go all away
From this cold and messed up world


I am in love with you
You set me free
I can't do this thing
Called life without you here with me
Cause
I'm Dangerously In Love with you
I'll never leave
Just keep lovin' me
The way I love you loving me


And I know you love me
Love me for who I am
Cause years before I became who I am
Baby you were my man
I know it ain't easy
Easy loving me
I appreciate the love and dedication
From you to me
Later on in my destiny
I see myself having your child
I see myself being your wife
And I see my whole future in your eyes
Thought of all my love for you
sometimes make me wanna cry
Realize all my blessings
I'm grateful
To have you by my side


Every time I see your face
My heart smiles
Every time it feels so good
It hurts sometimes
Created in this world
To love and to hold
To feel
To breathe
To love you


Dangerously in love
Can't do this thing
I love you , I love you, I love you
I'll never leave
Just keep on loving me
I'm in love with you
I can not do
I cannot do anything without you in my life
Holding me, kissing me, loving me
DangerouslyI love you
Dangerously in love

GOD loves playing puzzles with me.
GOD loves playing jokes with me.
GOD loves playing hide and seek with me.
GOD loves playing merry go round with me.
GOD loves to put me up such high...
and drop like a dis-batch mango from very high hopes.... SPLATTERED!
GOD loves making fun of me.

DEcision lies between u.
No one can ever choose the path for you, except yourself.

HAH!

MY LIFE HAS BEEN LIVED WITH FULL OF JOKES~

Seen this video before?
Yeah u people sure do!
It's my favourite Advertisement.
wHY?
iT'S not about funeral aite...
But its about how much His wife treasure him despite his imperfections...
She talked about all his FLAWS AND ALL...
his bad habits in snoring and sleep talking.
But! Its the imperfections of him that makes it perfect...
Each time i see this advertisement,
be it in the bus, on tv or youtube.
I felt something...
It tells me how much i must treasure people around me...
It's so touching to hear her speech.
One moment with all kinds of sound.
And another moment with much agony....
Best sial....

Being too perfect in life has no meaning.
No thrill at all..
Correct me if i'm wrong...
If a person is sooo beautifully perfect perfect.
WAAT you wanna say to him or her?
Ur beautiful???

or

you might have all kinds of flaws and all but u are perfect in my eyes....
Right!
It don't have to be looks and fortune that gives you perfectness but its what you are and be yourself shows thr true u...

So people! Do treasure and accept ppl for who they are....
Cuz, once they are out off the natural world you'll regret of the things u shld have done to your loved ones and appreciate them despite how much problematic they are or how many times u quarrelled with them.
So,
when u say you miss that person
when u say you love that person
when u say your sorry to that person
when u say you treasure them
when u say you adore them...

Not just a bloody word or sentence that just come out from ur mouth or because you want to say to please that person...
BUt say it full from the bottom of your heart...
That way...
Life will be perfect no matter how much nonsense you have in life...

So, right now...
i would like to say from my deepest bottom of my heart that..

Syg,
I love you not for how bad you are.
But I LOVE YOU for what you are at heart.
I love you not because you have so many flaws and all..
But I LOVE YOU for , by accepting your flaws and all...
It's not hard ya know...
I miss you not because i wanna miss you miss you...
But because I MISS YOU for all the things we've done...
I miss you not because i just want your love and care and tender and hug
But I MISS YOU because of your presence....
Despite the times we laughed and went mad.
But went through talks tht when we're in a serious mode hahah!

And all i wanna say is....
No matter how many flaws and all you have...
in my EYE., your imperfections makes it perfect in every way...

Went to see a chinese physican this morning about my knee..
It actually went out of placing..
Then met teha and went for Rehersal in school..

The stress was there...
i dunno wat to say but....
I think i am much too much of emotional today...
Its been a long time since i went emotionally emotional.
I missed the past group oof how the way we sang..
But since its a new group i'm singing with..
I am adapting very well with them..
But i do hope they put their very best too...
I can see for most of them.
Good going guys, but keep it up aite... =D


Went to have dinner with Irene, Juz, Faiz, Dj, Natri and Teha at Subway..
Then went home...


Suddenly, i felt much wanted to call teha back and borrow her shoulder...
I went out of words and blank in mind a tht point of time...
I held, my tears and feelings back home in the bus thinking...
Till i get to call teha...
And ask i speak with her...
I can't control my feelinngs...
It's went bursting like cats and dogs...
Many kinds of reasons and questions running through my head...
I'm glad, i have Teha to turn to... =(
since that day i met you.
I know you have sth to tell me but you dunno when /what to say..
so i kept mumm.... but....
Which leads me to go blank as a blank sheep or as blank as a blank piece of paper for the next 3 days.... =((((((((


As much as i know your going in...
I am so afraid of many things..
I'm sadden tht ur oin NS but it a must u have to...
And i'll wait..
But if things turned out to be
" Think, we'll have to stop where we are... because i'm going to the forest"

or

"think we have to take a break till i fininsh in the forest."
or other excuses reason because i think it's too absurb to give these kinds of reasons...
As you said before...
Nothing cannot be solved...
And i do hope, even if it's solved, it wouldn't be this way..... =((((((
and I LOVE YOU. =*


Thank you Teha...
I lowe you.... =*

Mondays BLUEAK! =(

I went to work today.
A new admin lady came taking over Kat's place...
Todays' fweeling was totally bad..
It sucked i thell u...

Then rushed off to school for Floorball training today.
My training skills sucked too....
i can't even score goals..
simple ones...

Somehow hurt my right kneecap... due to old injury...



When people happened to be tired...
People tend to forget things...
I dun wan to elaborate any further...
cause i'm feeling dreadful and tired...
It is sometimes... that...
due to exhausion that leads to not taking the chance to reply....