i'm bored during this holidays...

rehersals...
late night sleeping (nth special)
waking up late....
exercising....

all these things seems so normal....

missing him seems very normal too...
but to me...
the misses and love for him are different and special everyday.... =)
do u feel it syg?
Hurhurhur! =*


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Friends....
whats it for?
some says its for expanding the social circle..
some says to know more people ...
some says...
if someone is in trouble tht person or whoeve can back it up.
some says when one is down, he/she/they can always be there for one another...
how about exchanging views of each other...
not in other people but towards each other...
some excepts...
some don't...
why so?
so who/ how is it "u" can change for the better when views from other people u dun wanna to hear..?
how to have better friends?
is it of the same activities u have?
or wat?
or its someone who is willing to tell u right from wrong u ur willing to accept wat they say....
If not willing to accept friends opinion, whats gonna happen when ur in the real world of reality?
wats said has been said...
its up to u readers to decide....
i think if i said it till here you guys understand wat i mean right?
hahah! if don't .
Do go to ....
WWW.GOOGLE.COM.SG and search for what friends are for.....
more or less gives u an idea.... =)

Let me put a fullstop here...

A LOUSY WEEK!

as it has seems...
i haven been letting my voice rest.
then i came falling ill
so bad that i nearly fall out from my stableness....
apart from falling ill...
flu, sorethroat...
and apart from ill...
my hairs a frail too...
spoiled and spoiled!
nvr in my 21 years its so spoiled till like tht..
first time i felt as if i was in depression over a spoiled hair which was stupid...
but my hair brings out what i am...
a spoiled hair....(speechlesss)
certain things hasn't been well too...
which kept my mind occupied...
i shall nt say it...
think its better to keep it to myself...
cuz its better to let alone myself know then anyone else...

being with my syg is a blessing...
nvr have i regret a thang.
it may be an amazing ride or a dangerous ride...
i'm glad its him i go on with...
an ego guy like him could actually made me fall for him....
is nt easy know...
moreover...
its not his looks tht i fall for..
but who he is....
makes me fall deeply into a hole for him that no one can replace him.
(LOVE YOU handsome =*...)

overall, these week is a bad omen for me... =(

ps: let me say it again....
close is close....
but keep ur hands off him...
unless u dunno what does limits means...
tell me how it feels if u were in that situation too...
i dun wanna be mean...
but i'm just trying to be nice here...
i dun wanna be selfish .
cuz i'm not.
BUT this, i have to say i am selfish. cuz his mine.you know....

Finally, exams are over....

sigh.... no more waking up early disturbed by my alarm clock.

No more rushing or walking to skl....

no more wearing SM shirt....

no more special hand signs from my classmates...

no more projects to be rushed...

no more alot of things.....

happy yet sad...

full of memories...

loads of happiness, joy n laughter....

yet with arguments and happy endings....

i'm glad it all ended with a good note... =)

As syg has POPed....

i managed to see him twice a week

yesterday after a meeting with my classmates awhile...

more to come...

lets make it short n sweet.

we've walked throught a long aile of esplanade ...... heee!

2 class test down ....

1 final crucial to go before ring ding ding.... HOLIDAY!

but haven been feeling well nor eating well these days...

tht aside...

have been up late studying

radio station for final competition

band rehersal for iTalent...

do vote for us...!

sms.... ITECCS(space) IMO6 to 91822255

have been smsing for these 2 days till i memorised it loL!...

and i have a last shout out! before i end this update for today...

that....

i miss my syg very much.... =(

u know i know ah syg.....

cuz ur the perfect man for me...
i love you i do.... =D

JEALOUSY IS A WHOLE BUNDLE OF EMOTIONS

We tend to think of jealousy as a single emotion, but actually it is a whole bundle of feelings that tend to get lumped together. Jealousy can manifest as anger, fear, hurt, betrayal, anxiety, agitation, sadness, paranoia, depression, loneliness, envy, coveting, feeling powerless, feeling inadequate, feeling excluded. It often helps to identify what is the exact mix of feelings you experience when you feel jealous. What is the primary emotion you feel when you are jealous? Demystifying the exact components of your jealousy can be a giant step towards getting a grip on things and resolving the problem. Is it always the same for you or does the mix change from time to time depending on circumstances? For instance, one woman figured out that her jealousy was about 50% fear, 20% anger, 20% feeling powerless and 10% feeling betrayed. However, when she asked her partner for reassurance and affection, and he provided it, the anger and betrayal disappeared. Then her jealousy was much more manageable, because most of what was left was fear and she could express those feelings more easily to her partner and resolve them.

Hahahah! its wat i read about jealousy when i was bored...
it was the first time i could express in tht manner...
and that was a shocking state to myself too loL!....
Nevertheless, i had to overcome tht...
with so much it jealousy inside me is not gonna work...
cuz thats not what i am...
Thats why, i have to be able to understand....
and thts where trusts comes in...
cause i have nvr doubt him...=)

Still whoever is out there to get him..
i shall say his mine...
dun try taking him away from me eh..
cuz its not fair...
know where u stand....
dun go beyond limits...
well, as i myself have to too.. lOL!...

Lets talk about yesterday...
i just wanna thank people for coming down to see my show...
well not only mine but the group of us thts performing and i hope ur enjoyed the little things here and there hahah!

And come to think of the rides reminds me of syg and i playing at
escape theme park back that time....
where crisis for both of us was at stake... loL!...
nvrtheless, yesterday was the most craziest ride of all and i get to sit that with him was an honour....
"we fly,we fly high together. We go down,we go down together.We shout,we shout out i love you together"
hahaha!
and i'd love to have more adventures out with him... =)

Today is the first day of Chinese New Year

also as well as VaLenTine's DaY!

omg....

I have no choice but miss out valentine's day today. =(

I'm so sorry my dear.

I will repay tht day the next day or when ur free this week. =)

Bt nevertheless, we both exchanged V.D. gifts on a friday.

and i've gt to say this ,

that i lorved the gift u gave syg. =)

till i wear it on the first day of chinese new year/valentine's day hahah!

Lovely ya?!

And u cun reject

ISKANDAR PITT and APRIL JOLENE!

nOT to forget Amz... =)

Isk and his bunk mates...

Not to forget to support my skl bandmates at ITALENT!

Shall update the dates but its a saturday at VIvo City!


Coming days gotta start studying for my exams...

no time.....

" dun mess with wats mine...i might not be there but i'm not blind"

I had loads of things to do this week...

Preparation for the camp.

cHecks here and there..

rehersal.

then camp on friday and saturday.

It was my first time going to Pulau Ubin..

My first time having outdoor cooking!

first time sleeping in a tent.

hahah!

gAINed new experience !

But had to be under the scorching sun the whole day..

standing the whole day cuz i'm the assistant camp chief...

how exhausted was that!

responsibilities tht amera, hubert and i had to hold..

and consequences tht we had to face for any of their mistakes...

was stressed up!
but i'm glad tht was over.

And now the only thing i left to do is my POM final paper!

EVM report to hand in and presentation to present

ODR to presentation to present FIRST! then report...

I hope,

there wld be more automatic.

and not taking for granted attitude.

once work means work.

show coloured face.

at the end of the day.

we work together, our results shows better.

Dragged myself out of the bed today for Photoshoot.

nvr had propershoot b4.. but funny la hhah!

coming this week will be more hectic

cuz i'll have to clean the house.

do gardening...

clean the mess at home.

study for POM.

get ready for ODR presentation...yarlk!

and chinese new year!

but darn it cuz it clashes with Valentine's day..

but tht does not mean i'll miss my valentine's day..

i'll just have My VALENTINE's day another day..with my syg...

sorry syg.. =(

but trust me...

it'll be sth special.. =)

and

XOXO...

I MISS YOU TOO...

badly..

teehee... =)

SM camp 2010

Too tired... dozing off in class..